srsly!wanna punch you in the face...

Ok. so let me start the talking  typing by telling you a story about a friend.. actually we're really close.. so this friend of mine has a long distance relationship with his BOYfriend whose now base on the other part of the world. im also close to the guy.. actually, he ask me to be in charge with my friend while his away. and i was okay with that.. the relationship went smoothly. they talk over the phone, video chat on skype, the guy sends presents to the girl and all the stuffs that a regular boyfriend girlfriend use to do.. 

Then a GIRL went to the picture.. the thing is, she's also a friend. (btw. the GIRL isn't connected to the GUY, but rather to MY FRIEND- how cool is that?) so the GIRL and my friend became friends and surprisingly became, i dont know, LOVERS? they do even have the monthsary...CUTE!

now, the GIRL and my friend are so in love with each other. so inlove that she barely remember her BOYFRIEND across the earth.

now. the thing is. i was stuck between the two bread. i dont know what side am i in. both parties are so close to me. the BOY is really a husband material for my friend, the GIRL is such a nice person. so nice that i forgot SHE'S a GIRL. kulang nlng islan iya genitalia. hai. everytime my friend post something sweet to her BOYFRIEND's wall, i was like "hey dude, she's cheating on you, she has a GIRLFRIEND. yes! GIRLfriend while you're there working so hard fighting the ails and sadness ALONE." 

But i love my friend, ill go with whatever or whoever makes her happy. but, as her friend, is that the right thing to do? to tolerate her wrongdoings? i mean, yeah, she's just loving. but loving another person while she's in acommitment? 

ive been there before. and i know the bottom line would be : the other person who was just inserted on the frame will be end up crying.  and i dont want that to happen.

im not bad.. just so STRAIGHTFORWARD

im a straightforward girl. and a classmate of mine hates me for that. but why? if your a frank and outspoken person, would that makes you a bad one? 

to defend myself: i cant stand the attitude of being nice to the people who treated me bad and have caused me harm. im not the person who would just act nice in front of you and pretend you haven't done anything wrong.. and in the end  would get pissed and suffer cause u have no idea that you've done something immoral to me.. so why suffer if i could just tell you or make you feel that you've done something wrong to me?

reflection: maybe that's why some people in the past left me. cause i'm straightforward and impulsive of my actions. i fight for what i believe. i scold people. i want war, i want justice, i want FAIRNESS ..  

for further ellaboration:you see, i was once this girl who used to be stepped on, tamed, and secretive. ill just sit there in the corner and cry. keeping all those EFFs to myself believing it would be okey  if ill just keep my mouth shut.. but you see, nowadays a large percentage of people are too numb to notice their faults. and if i zipp my mouth, id suffer and would get irritated of these insensitive losers.im the best, the most friendly, nice, approachable, true, caring, loving, and gentle person you could ever meet. but i could be the most dangerous, worst, fearless, bitchiest bitch you could ever encounter once u've hurt me, my family , friends and loved ones.

ive been a lot of stuffs these past few years. so i know how hard it is being hurt. so as much as possible i go straight to the problem and solve it.

so would that makes me a bad creature?