srsly!wanna punch you in the face...

Ok. so let me start the talking  typing by telling you a story about a friend.. actually we're really close.. so this friend of mine has a long distance relationship with his BOYfriend whose now base on the other part of the world. im also close to the guy.. actually, he ask me to be in charge with my friend while his away. and i was okay with that.. the relationship went smoothly. they talk over the phone, video chat on skype, the guy sends presents to the girl and all the stuffs that a regular boyfriend girlfriend use to do.. 

Then a GIRL went to the picture.. the thing is, she's also a friend. (btw. the GIRL isn't connected to the GUY, but rather to MY FRIEND- how cool is that?) so the GIRL and my friend became friends and surprisingly became, i dont know, LOVERS? they do even have the monthsary...CUTE!

now, the GIRL and my friend are so in love with each other. so inlove that she barely remember her BOYFRIEND across the earth.

now. the thing is. i was stuck between the two bread. i dont know what side am i in. both parties are so close to me. the BOY is really a husband material for my friend, the GIRL is such a nice person. so nice that i forgot SHE'S a GIRL. kulang nlng islan iya genitalia. hai. everytime my friend post something sweet to her BOYFRIEND's wall, i was like "hey dude, she's cheating on you, she has a GIRLFRIEND. yes! GIRLfriend while you're there working so hard fighting the ails and sadness ALONE." 

But i love my friend, ill go with whatever or whoever makes her happy. but, as her friend, is that the right thing to do? to tolerate her wrongdoings? i mean, yeah, she's just loving. but loving another person while she's in acommitment? 

ive been there before. and i know the bottom line would be : the other person who was just inserted on the frame will be end up crying.  and i dont want that to happen.

im not bad.. just so STRAIGHTFORWARD

im a straightforward girl. and a classmate of mine hates me for that. but why? if your a frank and outspoken person, would that makes you a bad one? 

to defend myself: i cant stand the attitude of being nice to the people who treated me bad and have caused me harm. im not the person who would just act nice in front of you and pretend you haven't done anything wrong.. and in the end  would get pissed and suffer cause u have no idea that you've done something immoral to me.. so why suffer if i could just tell you or make you feel that you've done something wrong to me?

reflection: maybe that's why some people in the past left me. cause i'm straightforward and impulsive of my actions. i fight for what i believe. i scold people. i want war, i want justice, i want FAIRNESS ..  

for further ellaboration:you see, i was once this girl who used to be stepped on, tamed, and secretive. ill just sit there in the corner and cry. keeping all those EFFs to myself believing it would be okey  if ill just keep my mouth shut.. but you see, nowadays a large percentage of people are too numb to notice their faults. and if i zipp my mouth, id suffer and would get irritated of these insensitive losers.im the best, the most friendly, nice, approachable, true, caring, loving, and gentle person you could ever meet. but i could be the most dangerous, worst, fearless, bitchiest bitch you could ever encounter once u've hurt me, my family , friends and loved ones.

ive been a lot of stuffs these past few years. so i know how hard it is being hurt. so as much as possible i go straight to the problem and solve it.

so would that makes me a bad creature?

status quo

the status quo

He betrayed you

He cheated on you

He lied to you

He keeps on hurting you

Your’e just happy when ur together,

But ur bothered when hes not around or hes not texting u

He keeps on saying sorry and promises not to commit the same mistakes again, but he keeps on doing the same wrong thing and u end up crying…

While ur busy doing ur stuffs, he is also busy doing stuffs with others secretly

Your’e always giving him a chance yet he always fails to prove himself to you 

Hes the numbest person ever existed

If he did it once, twice, three times, he can do it again

Same thing, same reason, and maybe with the same person..

And there you are, HURT, BOTHERED, ANXIOUS, then CRYING ..

Yet, always welcomes him with open arms. 

Believing  his sweet words again.

Expecting him to change

But after sometime, there he goes

Doing his old stuffs again..

And there you are

Hurting and crying with the same set of reasons..

-a little reminder from tumblr (just in case u forgot)

to my ever loyal stalker

To  myk etelev

                                Hfjkalrhtqwhrfipqwgitokkg,y;aleksfuiawghri;flsafjasdpotwejtm;3yh9-wpzjf/le;usdpsjdkspdjeasopufo/kfmtgpoejk/tg;esjfgvtpw9eriy6wr][lyg’/g;tja[/wero[]qwrlk[tjopiew’yqew’[kyh. (that’s how my fingertips express their feelings about you)

                I know you hate me. Don’t worry! I HATE YOU MORE! You know why?? Ill enumerate and explain each of the single detail to you… J

    You stole my BOOBOT! - They say ur smart. You've even garner awards (not just plain awards but the major one) before. And ur even studying in a very prominent school. Right?  So how come a smart girl like you became such a big HOMEWRECKER??

    Your such a well trained BACKFIGHTER-  From a reliable source< BAL  AN MUH, MGA BARKADA YA NA XNG UNA MGA MALDITA… GAPANG AWAY..AMU GD MAN NA BATASAN YA>ok.. duhr! Is it really your hobby to talk stuffs about me behind my back (or should I say on your very private fb account)? Shame on you. Your suppose to be a good examples to your colleagues.  You can talk all u want about me but the things you tell about me are things you want that you cant get so build a bridge and get over it..:) and just a little compliment for you .. ur really a good WORD WAR SOLDIER.. pirde q ah.. well trained ka gd ya dhai.. xa mga words muh plang, makita gd batasan muh. J

    You’re so proud of yourself- Honestly, its nice to know that u never degrade yourself. But try to slow it down. I know im not beautiful. But will you stop comparing yourself to me and say ( FEELING Q GWAPA GD Q YA KUNG MAKITA Q XA…) hahahaha… LMAO… ok.. sabi mo ei.. but girl.. Im telling you, because of what you’ve said and posted on your account? I’m becoming blooming and pleasing to the eye.. ;)

    You’re the BEST STALKER IN TOWN - are you that desperate?  You’ve already done it twice.. I admit, the first time you made a false account just to stalk me was a successful one.. I even liked ur status saying “AT FIRST I WAS, VERY JEALOUS. BUT WHEN I SAW HER, SHE’S UGLY.VERY UGLY” . That post was after you saw me at  SM. right? Hahaha. That line can really lessen your pain especially when a guy chose the other instead of you.. ok.. sabi mo eh. But havn’t you notice? I liked your status. And even my bestfriends liked it too (and btw. Thanks for adding them all just to make me click that confirm button).duhr! It simply shows I felt the same way, so stop celebrating and saying im stupid.. (salig ka lng kay may mata ka xkun kag ako wala).Don’t worry. I wont stop this 2^nd modus operandi of yours. As what I’ve posted on my page

To my ever loyal stalker, : i really appreciate ur effort making false account just to take a peep (i mean a daily trip)on my page.ur free to do so,,i wont stop u. :) 
go stab me behind my back w/ those (u better than me things) to ur frends, they'l surely agree on u cuz they dont have any choice ryt? say whatever u want cuz i dont care. Godbless. :)
lots of care,,
doodie...

And btw.. Don’t question my personality cuase this is the real me,.  im really religious even though I seldom visit the church. Don’t you dare question my faith in God. Remember! im a pharmacy student.. you know the chemical HCl? Judge my faith again and Ill introduce my friend HCl to you.. J

   COWARD MUCH -  If you have problems with me, could you just tell me directly? Oh.i forgot. Were not friends. mmm.. I have a better idea.. tell booobot ur hinanaings instead. .let he be the bridge between you and me.. J

Seriously. Ur not funny anymore. SUKDULAN ngd ya pagka maldita muh.. ano pagd imu haw? Oo kamu na ni boobot..And im fine with that. ngaa ga pakabuang ka man dyapun stalk kg libak xkun? Haay tawo… you know, after I knew about the both of you thing, I have this “ok. Back to work doodie. Bay I nalng sila feeling”. But jeess… nag umpisa ka nman pabati2? Oh my.. like, what’s wrong with you? Im here, enjoying my life being single and there you are, wanna start a word war again… la ka pa gd ya natak an? This stat is for you (wla ta ka nabatuan, gna explain q lg self q)

to my ever loyal stalker: our theology teacher said " starting a WORD war is not good" it simply shows ur a coward... visit our theology class sometimes.ul surely learn a lot like things uve never heard before.. and btw.. dont be so PRANING.. ur not that important to be a part of my daily routine.. im a busy person.. :))

         Even though I have this all reasons compiled, I still want to thank you. Because of you, I experience the word HURT. And you taught me how to limit the things that I share with people. And because of you, I gained the courage to be better, smarter and wiser. Thaks for that. J

PS:

         Let me tell you my little secret..

         Boobot and I are still in good terms. Text each other everyday, sometimes eat lunch together and if we have time, we watch movie together.  How sweet.. <3

A LITTLE BIT OF ADVICE

        

         Make sure ur always updated, bring eyemo to have clearer vision, always bring cotton buds for your ears, and make sure ur not looking TANGA.. malay mo, ikaw nlng wla kabalo… J

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